Anicca

Anicca: The Constant of Change

Life feels like it’s in a strange holding pattern right now. Not stuck, exactly — more like hovering. Waiting. Listening. And yet, beneath that stillness, I can feel the next shift gathering itself, ready to arrive.

Yoga introduced me to the concept of anicca — impermanence. The reminder that everything is always changing, flowing, dissolving, becoming. Nothing stays the same, not even the things we cling to the most.

Since our move to Denver, change has been the dominant rhythm. It came fast, sometimes faster than I thought I could keep up with. I found my way to Altitude Personal Fitness, and suddenly I was surrounded by people hungry for transformation — clients who show up ready to work, ready to grow, ready to discover what strength feels like in their own bodies. At 12th House Yoga, I’ve been welcomed into a community that trusts me to lead, to teach, to hold space. My acting journey expanded through classes at the DCPA and now Rise Comedy, each one stretching me in new directions. And then there’s Phenomenomaly at Meow Wolf — three months of immersive chaos, creativity, and clown‑energy that cracked open parts of me I didn’t even know were waiting.

And yet, in the past few weeks, I’ve felt a subtle stagnation creeping in. A slowing. A pause. But as I write this, I can feel gratitude rising to meet it. Gratitude for everything that has arrived, everything that has challenged me, everything that has shaped this chapter.

Underneath all of it, though, sits one persistent stressor: the condo in the Springs. A full year of effort, nearly $100K in remodeling, and still not a single offer. Paying for two homes forces daily financial choices, daily recalculations, daily reminders of what hasn’t moved yet. It’s the weight that keeps tugging at the edges of my calm.

But then — anicca.

Nothing is permanent.

The joys are shifting. The show at Meow Wolf closes tomorrow. The main gym I work at is being torn down for apartments. Yoga classes at 12th House are expanding. Next month I’m renting space to bring Men’s Natural Yoga to Denver. Clown class will end. New auditions are already appearing on the horizon.

Life oscillates. Sometimes it feels caught, tight, compressed by stress. Sometimes it moves with the force of a storm, wild and exhilarating. Impermanence isn’t just a concept — it’s the lived truth that everything is always in motion.

Awareness comes when we stop pretending that stability is the goal. When we recognize that change is the constant, and that what we’re focusing on will shift, dissolve, or transform before we know it. Unless, of course, we cling to it — but that’s a whole other blog post.

For now, let’s stay with the bigger picture:

Change is what makes life interesting. Change is what makes life fulfilling. Change is what keeps life exciting.

So I’ll ask — not as a challenge, but as an invitation:

Where are you focusing?